I did it, I FINALLY FINISHED; consider this mom-to-be graduated. I’m a year and a half late but hey, graduated is graduated; and it’s a real diploma, NOT a GED as I first intended to get. I finished my most tedious class, Algebra 2 and passed with a 85.75 B, making a 94.93% A on my final exam. I am overly proud of myself, people wouldn’t understand. In my entire “short” life, I have never gone completely through with anything, I’ve never had a sense of accomplishing anything. When I started something, it never got finished. But now, I feel completely different. This accomplishment has made me feel like I can do anything I want. With this diploma, I now have my foot in the door. I can go to any college, any where, to be anything I want. I feel like I am standing in a hallway with a million doors that I can choose from to just walk in. Now that I’ve finished high school, the next step is to apply for a federal grant to help me get into the college I want to go to. I’m not exactly sure which college I want to go to, but I do know that I am not going to live on campus. I need to be at my home, taking care of my baby while I go to school. BTW, I don’t plan on even starting college until 6 months after the baby is born because in those critical months, I need to be available to my little girl at all times. But after 6 months, my butt is going straight to college.
At first, I though I knew what I wanted to do and become as far as career choices, but now I have a completely different outlook about everything. I have always wanted to be some kind of professional artist, ANYTHING to do with art. Although it can be a flaw, I am keen about looks; I love to look my best when going out. So cosmetics, hair, make-up, nails, anything to do with beauty really was my main aspiration. However, now I feel like making a more mature decision by taking full advantage of the grant/loan I will soon receive and go for the big occupation: Graphic Design. I want to design graphics for people because I am very talented in drawing, creating and developing art in advertisement, signs, writing, etc. I think that graphic design will be a better, more professional field for me to get into because one, it’s where the money is, as opposed to cosmetology. Two, the environment is more ideal for the kind of lifestyle I want to live. I don’t think I would like standing over peoples heads for hours and having an unreliable job in a cheap salon at the mall somewhere. I would much rather be working in an office environment where I have my own desk, computer, and cubicle having reliable hours with great benefits versus dealing with all kinds of people (clean and dirty) on a daily basis. In addition, cosmetology is so cheap and it only takes a year to be certified. I could actually pay out of pocket for my cosmetology certificate and just do it on the side as a hobby. I think it would be something that I could continue to do even after I retire. I could go to school to learn business management and run my own salon out of my home! That would be amazing because I’m sure I will love it then just the same as I do now.
I visited the Florida Gateway College last week to speak with a guidance counselor about my next steps to getting into college and to find out what my options are, semester deadlines, financial costs, etc. Unfortunately they had closed early, 30 minutes prior to my getting there, for the holidays. So I just grabbed a bunch of give-away paperwork to bring home with me and read over. I found a list of all the different academic programs and degrees that they offer. They have everything from the cosmetology that I want to do, to Criminal Justice, Nurse Practitioners, Law Enforcement, Childcare Development, Veterinarian, Etc. They have every course imaginable, on top of having a gigantic school campus as I found out last week. After looking at all the opportunities, my interest for school broadened tremendously. All of a sudden I decided that I might want to go learn Early Childhood Education, so that I can have an associates degree in that major and be able to legitimately home-school my little girl, which would be my dream to do. I also grew interest in criminal justice because, I always have been and still am interested in learning about our laws (not necessarily criminal laws, but laws nonetheless). I’m also interested in Business management as I’ve stated previously. I think this is a wonderful thing to be certified in no matter what your occupation is because you will have the ability to manage your own business whatever business that may be. Also, the business management (as well as the cosmetology certificate) is considered an occupational program, a career in one semester. That only means that you will be finished quickly, less than a year to complete, and I’m sure it’s cheap enough to pay out of pocket. So there are many different opportunities for me, and I’m not sure which one I want to take. I thought I had a pretty good idea, until I really started looking into it. Now I feel like I don’t know what I want to do first! But I’m slowly and surely figuring out exactly what I want and once I talk to a school guidance counselor, they will help me with my decision on whats best for my future and what will accommodate the lifestyle I want to have.
Being pregnant is overwhelming enough, so I’m not going to add any more of it to my life by getting overly excited about all this new school stuff. I have plenty of time to figure everything out, and during that time, I will know exactly what I want to do at that point in my life. Then I will have a lead way to my future career that I’ve always dreamed of. I feel so inspired to have so many different options to choose from. I know that once I start college, it will be just another goal that I will eventually accomplish and add to my list. As I’ve been learning from the book I’ve been reading “Ask And It Is Given”, You never get it done. Once you fulfill a desire, a new one sparks in your mind. And that’s perfect, that’s how people, and the world evolve and expand, learning more by developing new thoughts and desires. So that’s what I’m doing, once I accomplish getting something I want, I want something else and then work towards accomplishing that, and so on and so forth. It’s really amazing how everything works out in this universe, and what it brings you when you’re aligned with it. I am so much looking forward to spending the rest of this pregnancy preparing for it, and preparing for college. What a wonderful way for me to start the new year right. I am ready for whatever the future has in store for me and my little one who will be here in March. (: